Gratefulness

Gratefulness

Dr. Gabriella Kőrösi, PhD, MN, RN

           I been thinking for a while to write about gratefulness. It is a very emotional topic for me. Gratefulness is on my mind every day. It is so personal that I have not thought about writing about it openly. Something switched in my thinking about a week ago. I was pondering upon my next topic for a blog. I was having a wonderful conversation while sitting in a comfortable and welcoming space with my acupuncturist discussing different topics. We talked about health, the world we live in, the importance to bring positive thinking and actions to our world, our place in the world, our feelings, interactions, and connections to others. It was a beautiful sunny day. I was thinking that I am so grateful to be here, to be in this exact moment, at this exact time to have this conversation. I was grateful for the nice day and was looking forward to my session. I been searching for the right words how to describe gratitude and gratefulness since that moment. I knew I have to write it. It is time to be open and express deep and intimate feelings about a core principle of my life. The word finally come to me as I was waking up this morning, just as I was thinking about all the things that I am grateful for.

            I was thinking that first of all I am grateful to be able to wake up this morning. I am grateful for the ability to open my eyes, to see the world and my surroundings. I am grateful for my family, my spouse, my children. All my sisters, cousins, their children, and spouses. I am grateful for all my friends and their families. My parents. I would not be able to be here without them to experience this life. Thank you for having me, mom, and dad. I love you both very much. I am grateful for all the doctors and nurses who took care me when I was born and throughout the years. I would not be able to be here without them. I was born way too early to survive on my own. I am profoundly grateful for the health care workers who took care of me, I truly would not exist without them. I am grateful for all the cells in my body that operate endlessly as a smooth working machinery, they function continuously at every moment of my life to form my body, my organs, my muscles. I just would not be able to exist without them. It is like a magical musical. A continuous opera that keeps going on and on with an amazing symphony as long as we live and beyond. I am grateful for all the people who touched my life throughout the years, friends, co-workers, classmates, professors, teachers, and their families. I am grateful for all of you. People who I interacted with at any time at any place. They all formed who I am today. Thank you. There are really no words that could express how grateful I am.

I am grateful that I was able to sleep in my bed last night. I have a roof over my head and food on the table. Then I started to think about all the people who made this possible. The millions of people out and around in the world. The people who made the bed and the people who made the sheets, the factories where things were produced. My job that allowed me to buy the bed and the sheets. The people who made those jobs possible. The places and people where the furniture was built, where the sheets were made. It is almost impossible to count how many people and how many things touch our lives. I do not know the person who made the bedside cabinet I have in my bedroom. Yet, I use it every day and enjoy its presence. I am grateful for that person, without knowing they touched my life.

It all the sudden made perfect sense. I could keep writing endlessly for months, possibly for years about all the things and people I am grateful for. The possibilities are endless. The word I was searching for just jumped out of my mind, made me smile and made me incredibly happy. I am grateful for it. Ready? The word I think the best describes gratefulness for me is Infinity. There is really no other way to put it. The possibilities to be grateful at every moment of every day are truly limitless. ∞